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Tuesday, June 10th, 2003
3:33 pm	Well I'd like to start by informing you all i will no longer be updating this journal...if i want drama I'll go to the theater. Chris thank you ur wonderful. My life is startin to unfold....it's happening its real later guys (Comment on this)
Monday, June 9th, 2003
9:40 pm	So much in so little time. Dad wants me out, w/no job...family's a mess...all the friends leavin...*throws hands in the air* i'll never be ready...goodbye Current Mood: scared (Comment on this)
Friday, June 6th, 2003
12:37 am	Well today was a nightmare...much thanx to Dom for making my day. Haven't talked to him since we got outta school. he found me on aim and completely made my day. im goin to see my grandma on saturday and then to orlando...yayness. i need a vacation so bad. chris cheer up... i dunno i got a head ache ill ttyl byes ~*~KEll Current Mood: blah (Comment on this)
Saturday, May 31st, 2003
5:54 pm	yet another Well graduation....seemed so unreal. it's happeed we are free. I LOVE you guys *wink*....we survived. Yet another case of boredum cured by one of rach's surveys LAYER ONE: -- Name: Kell -- Birth date: 4/15/1985 -- Birthplace: brentwood,ny -- Current Location: spring hell -- Eye Color: Brown -- Hair Color: brown -- Height: 5'6 maybe i dunno -- Righty or Lefty: righty -- Zodiac Sign: aries LAYER TWO: -- Your heritage: ima mutt....irish, some indian, french, etc. -- The shoes you wore today: vans -- Your Weakness: shopping -- Your fears: being alone....trusting the wrong person -- Your perfect pizza: o pizza....cheese, i love anything cept meat on it -- Goal you'd like to achieve: get to college and survive it LAYER THREE: -- Your most overused phrase on AIM: lol, dude -- Your thoughts first waking up: dammit...what is today? -- Your best physical feature: I suck all together -- Your bedtime: changes -- Your most missed memory: when i was young niave and stupid with "friends" at WHMS LAYER FOUR: -- Pepsi or Coke: cherry coke -- McDonald's or Burger King: subway or wendys -- Single or group dates: group -- Adidas or Nike: vans -- Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: hot milky tea. -- Chocolate or vanilla: chocolate -- Cappuccino or coffee: cappuccino LAYER FIVE: -- Smoke: cigs for awhile but i stopped.... -- Cuss: um.....yeah -- Sing: i try...*chokes* -- Take a shower everyday: damn straight -- Have a crush(es): not currently -- Do you think you've been in love: nah... -- Want to go to college: like mad! -- Like(d) high school: at times....learned of lot of lifes lessons....i was shitty for the most part thnx for the reminder -- Want to get married: IF i ever find a good guy -- Believe in yourself: sometimes -- Get motion sickness: nah -- Think you're attractive: not at all -- Think you're a health freak: No -- Get along with your parent(s): mom... -- Like thunderstorms: yes i do -- Play an instrument: nope LAYER SIX: In the past month... -- Drank alcohol: yes -- Smoked: yes its been 3 weeks -- Done a drug: nope -- Had Sex: nope -- Made Out: nope -- Gone on a date: No -- Gone to the mall: indeed -- Eaten an entire box of Oreos: nah -- Eaten sushi: *vomits*no -- Been on stage: yeah -- Been dumped: HAHAHA no u gotta have a b/f to get dumped rofl -- Gone skating: No -- Made homemade cookies: hell no too messy -- Gone skinny dipping: Nope -- Dyed your hair: No *sniffle* -- Stolen anything: No LAYER SEVEN: Ever... -- Played a game that required removal of clothing: yes -- If so, was it mixed company: yes -- Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: yes -- Been caught "doing something": nope -- Been called a tease: yeah...*shrug* -- Gotten beaten up: yes...family....*chokes...T..DAD* -- Shoplifted: no -- Changed who you were to fit in: No. LAYER EIGHT: -- Age you hope to be married: odds r i wont...im picky now -- Numbers and Names of Children: *shrug* -- Describe your Dream Wedding: on a beach...or garden...no church -- How do you want to die: in my sleep -- Where you want to go to college: either ucf or nyu -- What do you want to be when you grow up: interior decorator -- What country would you most like to visit: australia LAYER NINE: In a guy/girl.. -- Best eye color? green -- Best hair color? brown or black -- height: taller than me -- Best weight: heavier than me....:) lol -- Best articles of clothing: eh? pants? maybe? wtf? -- Best first date location: *shrug* -- Best first kiss location: i agree w/rachel...not around ppl LAYER TEN: -- Number of drugs taken illegally: zero -- Number of people I could trust with my life: 2 -- Number of CDs that I own: dun feel like counting -- Number of piercings: 1-3if u include ears -- Number of tattoos: 1 -- Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper?:*shrug* -- Number of scars on my body: 5 -- Number of things in my past that I regret: *shrug* ok that passed a lil bit of time....ive been sick...sore throat coughin up blood headache and sniffles. i havea fever today....shitty. may aprty was a dud....like 4 ppl showed up....eh wtfe...i dunno wut to write so ill be backlater ~*~Kell Current Mood: sick (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, May 25th, 2003
7:42 pm	another survey Name: Kelly Nickname: Kell, Billy,Ree, Super hooch, Ging, Etc. Birthday: 4/15/1985 Birthplace: Brentwood, New York Hometown: then: Islip Now: Spring hell Living Now: Spring Hell =Now= Current mood: tired, ikky, cranky Current music: Jack singing about "what is this" on nightmare b4 christmas Current taste: hot tea Current hair: messed up ponytail Current clothes: gray pet me flare pants, white button down shirt, black belt, Current annoyance: father Current smell: mexican pizza Current thing I ought to be doing: cleaning my room.AGAIN Current windows open: none Current desktop picture: good charlotte :) Current favorite band: i have 2 blink 182 and good charlotte Current book: catcher in the rye Current cds in stereo: alkaline trio:good mourning Current favorite celeb: Billy Martin Current hate: boredum Current job: rofl unemployed....lovin it...till i run outta money that is =The last time= Last book you read: cathcer in the rye Last movie you saw: lord of the rings.....now im watchni nightmare b4 christmas Last thing you had to drink: hot tea Last time you showered: this morning Last thing you ate: *shrug* later Last person you talked to on the phone: Mom Mom =Do I= Do drugs?: No Have sex?: no hurry....sorry guys Give oral sex?: nasty....there r better things to put in my mouth thank you... Receive oral sex?: nope Have a dream that keeps coming back?: yep Remember your first love?: does ice cream count? *wink* Still love him/her?: sure Read the newspaper?: every once in a while Have any gay or lesbian friends?: yes Believe in miracles?: i like to think so Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?: indeed Consider love a mistake?: in some cases it can be Have a favorite candy?: starburst.mmm...M&Ms are great too Believe in astrology?: *shrug* Believe in magic?: i guess....y not Believe in god?: it's complicated Have any pets: dogs and a hamster....her name is astoria....she's a cutie. Do well in school?: i did this year....:) no i need to find a new one....way to put it off Ree. *smacks head* Go to or plan to go to college: hope hope hope *crosses fingers* Wear hats?: sometimes...i prefer visors or beanies but hats arent bad Have any piercings?: ears, belly button, and hopefully nose soon...(suppossed to) Have any tattoos?: one...on myhip/tummy Hate yourself?: sometimes but i get over it.... Have an obsession?: doesn't everyone? Have a secret crush?: nah Do they know yet?: who? know what? Collect anything?: star boxes, polar bears,etc. Have a best friend?: yep Close friends?: indeed Wish on stars?: i have...dpeneds on my mood Like your handwriting?: not exactly Care about looks?: at times...but not too much.i alwayswear my hair ina damn ponytail...im too lazy to care =Love life= First crush: *shudder* he became a pot head....kicked out of 2 skools...dropped out...need i say more? he WAS great tho Single or attached?: single woot woot! Ever been in love?: if you call it that I guess...i dun think ive really found it yet Do you believe in love at first sight?: I havent found it yet buti wouldn't shut it out Do you believe in "the one?": y not.... =Juicy stuff= Have you ever played a game that required removal of clothing?: tee heeh hee Have you ever been intoxicated?: *chokes* Favorite place to be kissed?: ah the little secrets of life Shy to make the first move?: Eh. depends on the guy =Are you a= Wuss: sure...y not Druggy: no Daydreamer: yes...gets me in some trouble too. Freak: i dun think so but i've been told....stupid ppl *shakes head* Dork: dork rhymes with fork.and fork rhymes with pork....tee hee hee Bitch/Asshole: indeed Brat: i dun think im TOO bad Sarcastic: Don't you know sarcasism when you hear it charlie brown???? But yes....yes i am. Angel: cute....very cute Devil: nah *bats hand* Shy: nah...i dun think so... id have to ask others what they say Talkative: sure...silence canmake me nervous Adventurous: i can be Joker: i can be....it's kinda a family thing Flirty: i can be...if im in the mood to be =Word association= Rock: music Green: day Wet: ducks Cry: sad Peanut: snoopy Hay: horse...neigh Cold: new york Steamy: shower Fast: time Freaky: different Rain: movies Bite: ouch Suck: little brothers Blow: pop ;) Hard: core (compliments of sean ) top five places of the moment... 1. my room where u can't see the floor and my bed is there2. 3. My movie room 4. pool 5. My pantry top five bands of the moment... 1. GOOD Charlotte 2. Blink 182 3. AFI 4. Green Day 5. new found glory top five people of the moment (in no order) 1. Mom 2. Angie 3. Danny 4. Jax 5. Jess Current Mood: blah (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, May 16th, 2003
11:13 pm	Hello all! Tomorrow is my last day as a Checkers employee...HELL YEAH!!!!! I work 4-11. Then I'm free. I feel an urgency to sit and watch the nightmare before christmas....i haven't seen it in years. :/ i WILL watch it...I gotta rent it and junk. Tuesday is our last day of school. Monica....today was one of the last times i will probably ever see her in my life. 13 years....if i move....hell shell probably move...it sux....I'm startin to learn to leave my problems at home....not drag them along with me to skool....every once in a while they hitch a ride to work but eh its not too bad....i'm FINALLY learning to cope. it couldn't have come at a better time cuz shits gettin rough....real rough but what can ya do right? I have to clean my room....no floor in sight....my pretty poster is though. tee hee hee my mom is like ugh kell but damn wtf ever. almost free....so happy. im so tired.... i have the attention span of a ferret on speed so im gonna jet night all i heart u all' Kell Current Mood: anxious (Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 14th, 2003
7:48 pm	dark skys It was another one of those days...:/ I stayed home from skool cuz i wasnt feeling well plus i was a reck. Dad and I had a HUGE fight in wendy's after the chorus concert...and it continued till we got home....I finally went to "bed" I was up all night cuz I couldn't sleep. too much on my mind...I feel as if im on rock bottom all over again. I havent felt this down ina long time. moms feelin the same way. i would give anything for a way out...ANYTHING. i called angie this morning cuz I couldnt handle it i had to talk to someone...i was tryin not to cry but it didn't work...im not strong enough....i never have been. Oh well...no biggy....i guess its how its meant to be....thats pretty fucked up. i work 5-10 tomorrow...god how i can't wait to get outta there.bleh...I'm just gonna go...have a cup of tea...take some medicine...and chill out....try to neway. see you all tomorrow. 'nght ~*~Kell Current Mood: contemplative (Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 7th, 2003
9:52 pm	what am i so afraid of? why am i so frightened? Current Mood: scared (Comment on this)
Monday, April 28th, 2003
6:14 pm	........? Hello all. Today was progress reports and I am very pleased to report I got straight A's only for them to drop when we recieve report cards. From what I hear we get cap and gowns tomorrow. scary eh? Chris I need to thank you for the handful of smiles you delivered me this morning...teresa: I thank you as well. "CRAM IT!" rofl Chris you are wonderful. Thank you sooo much for being soooo funny. Once I went into English I got BIT pissy bcuz I'm still pissed that kid fucked me over. Fuckin ass hole. We got the Queen music in chorus today. It's much better than lambscapes...I thank you tricia. It's gonna be very hard to learn a 16 page song in 2 weeks though. I hope we can do it....it'd be kick ass if we did. I wanna go to the beach. Nate's been very short with me since my party...I guess I did something to piss him off. He doesn't wanna tall me what though. I'm fuckin tired.. I dunno I guess I'll jet. Write more when I'm "rested" good night all ~*~Kell Current Mood: tired (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, April 27th, 2003
7:43 pm	My apologies Oh fuck okay here we go.. I'm NOT going to flip because right now this is the last fucking thing I need in my life. Okay what happened at my party was a bunch of bullshit and I send out my apologies. I don't have any grudges against any of you people and what was said was bullshit. and I'm sorry...I should have been a better person and just sat back and listened...taken the punches and been fine with it but I stooped to the level and that was wrong, once again my apologies. As for the drinking yeah that's been shitty....It's been about a month because I am realizing it is doing nothin for me. All it did was made me do STUPID STUPID stuff.aking me act out of character...and I don't want anything to go too far...so I haven't been going to these "parties". As for people "talking trash" about me....it doesn't bother me...I'm fine if ppl wanna say shit that's their deal. I'm finally finding who I need to be and I'm starting to become happy with my self...I have the occasional lapses (drinking....not eating....etc. ) but for the most part I am doing better. At my party the way I acted was wrong and all I can do is send out my apologies and hope you all can find it in your hearts to forgive me. I guess there's not much more that I can say so I bid you all a farwell for now. ~*~Kell Current Mood: apathetic (Comment on this)
Saturday, April 26th, 2003
9:15 pm	"For once in my life I'm 18 and I can say FUCK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" (falls over laughing) Well hello all of you out there! I worked 10-6 today and I'm am so ready to move on to a better job when I find one. I'm feelin sick and shit i have a migrane...I'm pucky and I have had this mad cramp in my leg all day. I have had tons of shit on my mind and mother fucker I'm a bit annoyed I guess. I'm very short tempered right now. Some lady told my manager that I deserved a raise b-cuz I was wonderful. If only the woman knew she was wasting her breath....Checkers doesn't know the meaning of raises. That's why I say fuck em. All of em. MWAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! Back to school soon. Mom , Hitler, T and I are going to the beach tomorrow....or so it's been said. so I'm gonna put a bandade over my tattoo when I go. I'm not suppossed to expose it to much sun till it heals and shit and even when it's healed they said to douse it in sunscreen. Ah well. WTFE! I feel like I need to brush my teeth again. I brushed em at 7:30 when I finally got home from work and t's trip to walmart. But I have since had a cup of tea sooooooo need I say more? Chris thank you sooooooo much for what you wrote in your journal....made my day *big hugz* Hoochie. I have Sunday of next weekend off....tee hee hee. Yippee! I may actually get to see you. SCORE! Danny you need to come get your mother fuckin $$. I'm gettin damn tired of lookin at it! So there. I ripped y fake nails off. One of my nails ripped and was bleedin so when I got the bleeding to stop I painted my nails w/my black nail polish that I missed so much. I'm waitin to get yelled at at work. No nailpolish allowed,....cept on fake nails. FUCK YOU CHECKERS!!!!!!!!!!!! I have to return the movie to blockbuster so nate doesn't get a late fee....he's pissed at me by the way....*shrug* grrrrrrrr. I dunno I'm gonna jet...I'm nont feelin too hott. So I'll ttyal! Byes! ~*~Kell Current Mood: sick (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, April 25th, 2003
11:07 am	walk away.... Wow! Um....Ouch. Guys...My party fucked quite a bit of shit up. Sorry bout that. That isn't what I intended to happen. I found out quite a bit of shit I wish I hadn't but eh what are ya gonna do? I'll deal. I guess I have to. I think it's what I needed though. After a long "self search period" I finally figured out what I'm lookin to do. I'm going to do it too. I have to. What's holding me backanymore? It's all fallen apart...friends at war family...heh...yeah nuclear!memories...if I want em they'll fit in my suitcase. So now I've decided and I'm buckled down. I'm not turning back...I have too many times before and it's gotten me what? My point exactly. I think we ar eall to the point where we don't want to take anymore....or can't, either one is a good excuse I guess. High school's almost over...No looking back...no regrets? eh Maybe...but wtfe. I'm listening to Brand new....there is this song that is kinda like what our group seems to be feeling....it's bad... d/l seventy times 7. It's scary I'll post the lyrics in allofus. k? For nw I'm off....goodday all. *tips hat* ~*~Kelly Current Mood: anxious (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, April 24th, 2003
1:06 pm	Oh what a day. My birthday "party" was yesterday. It wasn't too grand. Angie came when she told me she wasn't I started to cry I was so happy. Sean also came when I wasn't sure if he was and I haven't seen him in 4ever so I was stoked. Jess I thought wasn't comin cuz it was like 4 and sheshowed up....her card was soo sweet. I dunno though. Things like that were great...Dons "Card" I thought was comical and so was seans....it just sucked. I have been lied to more in the past 3 days than i have in like 3 months....yeah it's bothering me. So now I'm sore...I'm pouty....I'm angry...Fuck it man. I'm gonna just go and call Jax...She makes me laugh. so I'm out thanks to thoe of you who came yesterday. ~*~Kell Current Mood: annoyed (Comment on this)
Sunday, April 20th, 2003
8:26 pm	happy easter Hello all. Wellprom was peachy...birthday sucked...work sux...I'm fuckin itchy i need the benadryl to kick in....mom thinks I'm allregic to the ink. Angie thank you so much for driving up here to be my support. it means very much to me. ok guys WEDNESDAY at noon my shit holoe. plz try i heart u all. *mwahs* ~*~Much love ~*~KEll Current Mood: amused (Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 26th, 2003
2:20 pm	Today I woke up..... Today I realized just how valuable true friendship is....Today I realized just how close we are.....Today I realized we've made it. May 28th we will all walk across that stage. We will all throw our caps in the air....cry and take our last group pictures. Then most of us will go home pack and off to a new life. A clear canvas....a new start. A new school....new friends....new classes. A whole new life, full of new opportunities. No more sing alongs....late night talks....at 2 am ....sittin on each others couches crying. No more "To just kill time" times. No more chillin at the Walmart. ;) lol. No omre "But Mom I swear I tried to call!" No more running red lights. No more pints/gallons of ice cream and staind unplugged. No more chorus trips. No more movie nights. No more "Bra dancing" No more blaring music just to piss of the rents. It's over guys! The party is over. It is true that these are the best years of our lives. I couldn't wish for better people to have shared them with. So I thank you all for being so wonderful...Lets enjoy the very little time we have left with each other...please. I love you guys!!! Much love always and forever: ~*~Kell Current Mood: contemplative (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, March 23rd, 2003
8:47 pm	This is a song my manager mentionjed to me.....its a good song....just to let ya all know!! Is This The End?" "is my family falling apart or has it already and is my life falling apart because I'm not ready to live in this world all alone I'm not a man just a boy going through life the best the best that I can don't let peoples' opinions change you you must stay strong cause if your environment gets to you your sanity won't last that long is this the end? she says she doesn't want to be here well why why don't she go is she telling the truth or putting on another big show and I don't know if this would effect me or bother me in any way I guess that's just how I've grown up I live my life my own way don't let peoples' opinions change you you must stay strong cause if your environment gets to you your sanity won't last that long is this the end? is this the end? is this the end? things are really fuct up but I know I'll make it through cause I've got some good friends to help me and they've done it too my friends thought I had everything 'cause my parents gave me what I want but what they can't see is inside my heart is torn in knots so lost and confused at the age of 17 will my life stay like this will I grow up to be old and mean please God help me I know you're on my side help me get the grass thats greener on the other side I hide don't let peoples' opinions change you you must stay strong cause if your environment gets to you your sanity won't last that long is this the end? is this the end? is this the end? at the age of 17 is this the end is this the end? is this the end? is this the end? at the age of 17 is this the end" ~Mest Current Mood: disappointed (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 18th, 2003
5:48 pm	"the only thing that matters is just following your heart.." "This Time Imperfect" I cannot leave here, I cannot stay Forever haunted, more than afraid Asphyxiate on words I would say I'm drawn to a blackened sky as I turn blue There are no flowers, no, not this time There will be no angels gracing the lines, just these stark words I find I'd show a smile but I'm too weak I'd share for you, could I only speak, just how much this hurts me I cannot stay here, I cannot leave Just like all I loved, I'm make believe Imagined heart, I disappear Seems... no one will appear here and make me real There are no flowers, no, not this time There will be no angels gracing the lines, just these stark words I find I'd show a smile but I'm too weak I'd share with you, could I only speak, just how much this hurts me I'd tell you how it haunts me I'd tell you how it haunts me Cuts through my day and sinks into my dreams I'd tell you how it haunts me Cuts through my day and sinks into my dreams You don't care that it haunts me There are no flowers, no, not this time There will be no angels gracing the lines, just these stark words I find I'd show a smile but I'm too weak I'd share with you, could I only speak, just how much this hurts me Just how much this hurts me Just how much you... survey Thanks Rachel! 1. WHAT COLOR ARE YOUR KITCHEN PLATES? Purple or white with grapes 2. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW? what book should I be reading now??? 3. WHAT'S ON YOUR MOUSE PAD? where did that thing go??? 4. FAVORITE BOARD GAME? *shrug* I guess clue 5. FAVORITE MAGAZINE? I dunno 6. FAVORITE SMELLS? I dunno.....hm....locker room.J/K!!!!too many to list i guess....Jovan NRG, Adidas, etc. 7. LEAST FAVORITE SMELL? locker room 8. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING? Aw fuck. school. Ah well only ___ days. 9. LEAST FAVORITE COLOR? burnt orange/brown 10. HOW MANY RINGS BEFORE YOU ANSWER THE PHONE? till the answering machine screens it. 11.WHAT WOULD YOU NAME YOUR CHILD? no kids...but i like ian caleb tiyler and almost all girls names SUCK!!!! 12. WHAT IS MOST IMPORTANT IN LIFE? having someone to trust...who will always be there. 14. DO YOU LIKE TO DRIVE FAST? at the moment i HATE driving! 15. DO YOU SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL? mr. bear 16. DO YOU LIKE STORMS? yes, yes i do.... 17. FIRST CAR? not yet 18. IF YOU COULD MEET ONE PERSON DEAD OR ALIVE? my uncle or billy joel 19. FAVORITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK? Smirnoff Ice or "Billy's penis".... 20. WHAT IS YOUR SIGN/BIRTHDAY? aries/april 15th, 85 21. Best Friend?(s) my mom and angie 22. DO YOU EAT THE STEMS OF BROCCOLI? no 23. IF YOU COULD HAVE ANY JOB WHAT WOULD IT BE? interior decorator.i guess. maybe a preformer of some sort. 24. IF YOU COULD HAVE ANY HAIR COLOR, WHAT WOULD IT BE? mine w/red and black highlights....it WILL happen....when i dunno. 25. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN LOVE? probably not. 26. IS THE GLASS HALF FULL OR HALF EMPTY? depends on the day 27. FAVORITE MOVIE? Billy Madison (great chocie rach!) (out cold-2nd) 28. DO YOU TYPE WITH YOUR FINGERS ON THE RIGHT KEYS? nope 29. WHAT'S UNDER YOUR BED? everything imaginable 30. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE NUMBER? 5 31. FAVORITE SPORT TO WATCH: hockey 32. WHAT IS YOUR SINGLE BIGGEST FEAR? being alone! 33. SAY ONE NICE THING ABOUT THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU/COPIED FROM: Shes fun to be around....crazy girl 34. PERSON(S) MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND? psh.... 35. PERSON YOU SENT THIS TO WHO IS LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND? everyone probably 36. FAVORITE GROUP? music group? i dont have just one. GC, blink 182, AFI, green day, etc. 37. FAVORITE TV SHOWS? All Things rock, friends, that 70s show 38. KETCHUP OR MUSTARD? mustard 39. HAMBURGERS OR HOTDOGS? *shudder* both are gross 41. THE BEST PLACES YOU HAVE EVER BEEN? New York, Tennesse 42. WHAT SCREEN SAVER IS ON YOUR COMPUTER RIGHT NOW? i havent the slightest clue 43 Favorite Season? fall MOM CAME HOME TODAY! She was in room 2266 on the 2nd floor of spring hill regional. She now has a home health aid nurse woman to help her out. Not in that good of shape. I really dunno if she hsould be home yet. For one shes still very sick and for two it isnt exactly the best environment. :/ I believe it's 27 days until I can officially tell ym father to kiss my fat ass. I'm looking forward to it greatly. May 11th. hell yeah. HM....I dunno guys I'm just gonna go I'll ttyal . byes! *Waves* ~*~Kell Current Mood: indescribable (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, March 6th, 2003
8:01 am	Another rainy day in "giggles land" Well this morning didn't go too well so mom told t and i to just stay home. But that's besides the point...I couldn't get back to sleep...My Kazza is being a bitch. I work 5-10 tonight...thank god. and 5-10 Friday too. They will probably work me Saturday....which sux cuz i wanted to see the musical while Chris was jekyll. It's Thursday....almost Friday. I have to get my ass in gear and read that book for english. Nothin like waiting till the last minute....I know I will I always do....foolishness. The Ataris " In This Diary " Here in this diary, I write you visions of my summer. It was the best I ever had. There were choruses and sing-alongs, and not a spoken feeling. I'm knowing that right now is all that matters. All the nights we stayed up talking and listening to 80's songs; quoting lines from all those movies that we love. It still brings a smile to my face. I guess when it comes down to it... Being grown up isn't half as fun as growing up: These are the best days of our lives. The only thing that matters is just following your heart and eventually you'll finally get it right. Breaking into hotel swimming pools, and wreaking havoc on our world. Hanging out at truck stops just to pass the time. The black top's singing me to sleep. Lighting fireworks in parking lots, illuminate the blackest nights. Cherry cokes under this moonlight summer sky. 2015 Riverside, it's time to say, "goodbye." Get on the bus, it's time to go. Being grown up isn't half as fun as growing up: These are the best days of our lives. The only thing that matters is just following your heart, and eventually you'll finally get it right. Stacy told me bout this song. He was singin it at work and told me to d/l it but b-4 i got the chance the music video came on much music. It's a good song....I like it anyway. I hope you are all doing well....and are happy. I'll talk to you all later. ~*~Kell Current Mood: complacent (Comment on this)
Saturday, March 1st, 2003
9:50 pm	all for shits and giggles Hello all! Well I was shocked as shit to see that somebody dtill read my journal....I think the fact that it was Danny shocked me a bit too for some reason. Today was actually pretty good. I worked from 10-6 and it went well. Then this guy was a prick to me and ashley and I laughed at him. it made me feel better to laugh. then I came home and mom and i went to kash n karry and this kid on a skateboard was hittin on me (when my mom was with me. wtf?)Mom was like omfg! what a loser. We laughed as he followed us outta the store(after chasin us with stuffed alligators)....and to our car....it was comical. I got to work with Gina today. She's still really nervous. I figured out how to use the grill today. Now I just have to master it. iI have basics of everything now i need details. corporate comes the week of march 23rd. Dianna wants a 90 or above. it would be a miraculous recovery from day shifts 53. ah yes. I went into work at 10 am this morning still tired as hell and they were listenin to a rap/jlo song that I just happened to know....i dunno if its from being round "smash" or the mtv but dianna and i were dancin and singing.....it was cool cuz normally shes uptight but me and her were havin a blast. we were laughin a lot today. Then we all made fun of joyce's "man" we call him "big dick willy" cuz hes very tall and when he comes to walk up u can only see from his shoulders down and his dick rests right on the counter. funny shit but we have fun with that one. dianna never heard us say it and she almost died. Gina was like oh yeah i work w/a buncha psychos. We got a new girl from what i hear from everyone shes a real bitch. So she will be havin a hard time with the crew. I haven't worked With the day shift in a week. I felt so special cuz I went in a Alan gives me a big hug....he sucha sweet guy. He's like "hey sweety how u doin?" Most of the crew members make me feel so comfortable...so at "home". *big grin* I get to work tuesday rather than havin off. SCORE! I had spagetti for dinner. I havent had spagetti in FOREVER!I really enjoyed it.mmmmmmmm. It's cold in this house. My parents were fighting and I didn't let it bother me. Then dad yelled at me and I just agreed and left with a smile. I'm so happy today it's really a great feeling....*spins* T had to go to steve's house because he couldn't stand the yelling. I was gonna take a walk with smash but she's at a prep party. :/ ah well. I was jammin to the all american rejects in my room till i got yelled at for havin the music too loud. NOBODY IS ONLINE!!!!! nobody's ever on anymore though. `*shrug* I need to go through my aol list and delete 1/2 the ppl. My l/j too. I'm too lazy. I'm gonna jet. I'm supposed to be doing something constructive. Later guys Love yas. ~*~Kell Current Mood: loved (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, February 28th, 2003
9:13 pm	suck--? tee hee hee Hello all! I just did some serious unwinding. Dad came and picked me up.when he asked how we did and I said I didn't wanna talk about it. He yelled. Said I don't communicate anymore. EH what does he fuckin know anymore. *shrug* I'm giving up on trying with Him anymore. When I got home Mom gave me a hug and said we did great. Then sheasked what we got and I just got that look and Dad started again. He can blow me man. I can only put so much of me forth....I guess. Simple Plan #12? or is it 13? I dunno I've liked that song for a LONG while. I posted it in my journal numerous times months ago when I used to update everyday. *shrugs* I get to go to work tomorrowbut it's the hsitty shift I work 10-6. I work Tuesday when I was suppossed to have off but I'm glad I'm working. Bisk's bloodwork came back. She has to go for more tests for her liver. If it is what they believe it is she will have to undergo surgery then follow-up treatment. It will cost me an arm and a leg. I'm thrilled. *sigh* HMMMM The all so famous song was being sung on the bus on the way to festival...bleh on that. Then they sang quite a bit of good songs....Actually they were all pretty good...well kinda except that one god damn song. I have grown to hate it. I guess I'm just dumb. lol. Ah well. T is home....wonderful. Mom is all excited bcause she got these Sketchers clog type things. She's thrilled. Kinda cute. I am so glad she made it today....even if we got a shitty rating. I love my mom I really do. LOL. She almost died when I told her how much I ate at the mall. She's like you were that bummed eh? The bus ride home was....um.....hm.....uh.....interesting? I wish I was more comfortable with most of those pl. I was real comfortable with two of em....yeah two outta...what 10? I have known one for about 3 years and the other about 2. I found out today my aunt and "evil" grandmother are comin for my graduation....bleh. My other grandmother is too sick....she may not be able to make it. I might be going shoe shopping with Ashley after work tomorrow. I wanna get another pair of sneakers....lol. cuz I have the money. yeah fuckin right! Ah well I'm up for the "adventure". Life's been relatively boring. I never see my friends anymore. Life consists of school, work, and home (for 2 hours after skool and to sleep). I realized nobody even reads this anymore so I could sit here and talk about....damn....just bout anything and it wouldnt matter i could put all my life secrets here and nobody would even know. Guess what Guys! I'm a prostatute on the Corner of Mariner and Landover! I give Friend discounts ;) lol Okay guys. I'm leaving. I'll write later I'm sure. ~*~Kell Current Mood: calm (1 Comment |Comment on this)